the paradox of wanting to be invincible and in control at all times AND wanting people to know you’re vulnerable so they treat you with care

3 months ago
#dont comfort me dont even look at me im self-sufficient and independent but also please know im hurt tired lonely and scared #tekst #all i ever need and want is someone to somehow understand that without communicating verbally #its embarrassing and i hate myself for it but no matter how much i deny it i cant do this alone #the world is too big for me and my stupid little life #anyways im putting on the clown shoes and waddling to my desk to write this shit down and maybe use it for a song